Hello friends and family! I need your help.
Every morning, when I wake up ( some of you know this ) I feel so horrible, that I feel like dying, and I think I can not keep going anymore.
I know it is a lot about my high levels of chronic pain, but I don’t know if there are also withdrawals or medication side effects, or my body just giving out after bad sleep nights, my 36 years of HIV surviving, and my history of cancer, I don’t know!
Then, usually- almost every day, I mean it - after a few hours, after taking my morning medications, about 2PM or so, my body and mind feel more balance, enough to do things on and off.
I then have during the evening especially a very happy almost no pain hour with lots of energy, when I do everything I can to catch up with life. And for that, I’m incredibly thankful to the universe.
It was important for me to write this because it gives me an eye view of my everyday life.
I had talked to my doctor, and we keep trying things, but is there anybody else out there who has similar experiences? Ideas? Explanations? I have to keep exploring options to have a better life.
Otherwise, I am thankful for what I have, I am incredibly lucky to be here.
Jesus Heberto Guillen Solis